letters_to_crish

I’m tugging at my hair

I’m pulling at my clothes

I’m trying to keep my cool
I know it shows

I’m staring at my feet
My cheeks are turning red

I’m searching for the words inside my head

Cause I’m feeling nervous

Trying to be so perfect

Cause I know you’re worth it

You’re worth it

If I could say what I want to say

I’d say I wanna blow you away

Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down
On one knee

Marry me today

Yes, I’m wishing my life away
With these things I’ll never say

It don’t do me any good
It’s just a waste of time

What use is it to you what’s on my mind
If ain’t coming out
,
We’re not going anywhere

So why can’t I just tell you that I care

What’s wrong with my tongue
These words keep slipping away
I stutter, I stumble like i’ve got nothing to say…

Hands down, that was the best day I can ever remember.

I’ll always remember the sound of the stereo,

the dim of the soft lights,

the scent of my hair that you twirled in your fingers

and the time on the clock when we realized it’s so late

and this walk that we shared together…

The streets were wet and the gate was locked

so I jumped in and I let you in.

And you stood at my door with your hands on my waist

and you kiss me like you meant it.

And I knew that you meant it…that you meant it..

that you meant it… And I knew that you meant it…

that you meant it…..

Millionaire say
Got a big shot deal
And thrown it all away but
But I’m not too sure
How I’m supposed to feel
Or what I’m supposed to say
But I’m not sure,
Not too sure how it feels
To handle every day
And I miss you love

Make room for the prey
‘Cause I’m coming in
With what I wanna say but
It’s gonna hurt
And I love the pain
A breeding ground for hate but…

I’m not sure,
Not too sure how it feels
To handle everyday
Like the one that just passed
In the crowds of all the people

Remember today
I’ve no respect for you
And I miss you love
And I miss you love

I love the way you love
But I hate the way
I’m supposed to love you back

It’s just a fad
Part of the teenage angst brigade and
remember today
I’ve no respect for you
And I miss you love
And I miss you love
I love the way you love
But I hate the way
I’m supposed to love you back

—there’s just so much I need to say….

Everytime you go away
It actually kinda makes my day
Everytime you leave you slam the door
You pick your words so carefully
You hate to think your hurtin’ me
You leave me laughing on the floor

I thought we were just hangin’ out
So why’d you kiss me on the mouth
You thought the way you taste would get me high
You went to all your friends to brag
Guys are always such a drag
Don’t you know the reason that I kissed ya was to say goodbye

Hanging, hanging out
I am simply
Hanging, hanging out
I am simply
Hanging
So why’d you kiss me on the mouth
Don’t you know that I…

I don’t give a damn about you
I won’t give it up, not for you
I don’t give a damn about you
I won’t give it up, not for you
I’m not gonna cry
‘Bout some stupid guy
Guy who thinks he’s all that

I’ve been ahead of my clock for a week now..though it’s supposed to alarm at five, I’ve been waking up at 4am!Then I would try to put myself to some more sleep but I could not..Was that all the sleep I got?? Four short hours???…I end up getting up or else I’d be late again….then I would stretch out my arms,put on my face,crack some stupid jokes,laugh with friends,sing my lungs out and stress myself into school loads and brain-draining thesis… then take a deep breath… sighs…Suddenly, I realized that no matter how I try to fake it, things are still never the same…….